Café Con Monica

Week?

Hello Everyone! Its been a while huh? Well I am still having issues with my VPN. It is working when it damn pleases. As such I had to make this post over two days. One day to figure out how to get the pictures on it and another to finish because I was so irritated yesterday! 

Its madness around here because we are preparing for the schools 10th anniversary celebration. The foreign teachers are putting on a very short, chinese written Snow White play. Yep, and I am the mirror. So very exciting…not so much. We’ve been running around like crazy having random last minute practices, and also prepping for this past weekends fair at the school. 

It definitely helps things go quickly and I still can’t believe its already December! I got most of my Xmas shopping done so that makes me feel better. Now some pictures…I have to get going to practice again.

Saturday afternoon I was invited to lunch on a student’s family farm. I was actually really worried about what would be served for lunch because the Chinese like to surprise you like that. It turned out to be sheep. I would like to say it was good but it was varies bits of the sheep that I prefer not to think about. We walked around the orchard for a bit too. 

definitely not prepared for the walk or the weather 
Why couldn’t we just eat Chicken??? 

Sunday we all had to be up early to go to the school and set up for the fair. One of our parents made cupcakes and cookies so I worked that booth. Ooh how I wish Chinese cupcakes tasted as good as the ones back home! 




One of the cookies the parent made, has the schools logo on! 

Shopping on Sunday afternoon we came across this poor kid. He has about 10 layers on. This is not uncommon my students all look like snowmen to deal with the 50° weather haha! 

We started decorating our classrooms this week! I saw this idea online a few weeks ago and then I can’t remember which blogger had done it to her fridge as well. I will save my apartment decor for another day.



That is all I have for now folks! I can still read all your blogs but until this VPN thing is worked out I will continue to be kind of touch & go so forgive me! 

Goodbye?

Well here is the post I said I was trying to write. I’ve been trying to word it correctly for a few days and realize there is no perfect way. The Boy and I broke up. I have no idea how people handle long distance relationships, not to say that we handled it incorrectly just the way that worked for us. I wasn’t sure if I should tell everyone but this blog is supposed to be about me and what is happening in my life and so I  should be able to share that. 

Break-ups suck. They do. We dated for 6 1/2 years so its not like either one of us is just ready to walk away and not think about the other again, not going to miss being part of each others family. I am not sure for him and to be honest I wasn’t a fan of his mother AT ALL but I did love some of his family. It was not a mutual thing really. It was definitely more me than him. But I don’t even know anymore. I felt this way back last year in October when we broke up for the first real breakup we had ever had. It lasted 6 months and somehow we both just kind of fell back into things and ended up back together. He knew what had been going on during our breakup, we remained friends, talking all the time and occasionally hanging out. G and I were talking about relationships all the time then and he kept saying we would end up back together. Most couples have that “last chance” and I think us getting back together was a last ditch effort by the two of us to make it work. 

I’m definitely not getting any younger and I think I convinced myself that he was the right guy. BUT all those things about him that led to the break up last year didn’t really change. Moving across the world, putting the expectation that we would most likely be thinking marriage when I got back was too much. How in the world did I think we could do that? I am a different person than I was when we met, he is not so much. We want different things and I am not sure I am done figuring out who I am. Neither of us would even be able to fix things with me where I am anyway. 

It isn’t one of those breakups where I am crying myself to sleep every night but still my heart is broken and I am sad because I somehow had my feelings change with a good guy over the past year or so. Because I am losing the one guy I’ve ever dated that has never done something to deliberately hurt me. Because all those dreams of marrying him are gone and have been for awhile. Because I don’t have my friends and family here to hug me and keep me occupied telling me it will be ok. 

So there is my breakup story. 

Happy Turkey Day!!!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

 I hope you all have a great day with your family, friends or whoever you are celebrating with! Be thankful for what you have. 

While I am still struggling through my homesickness because of being away for the holiday I am still so thankful for the amazing experiences I have had in the past 5 months. It took me years to finally work up the courage to move abroad to teach and I have definitely experienced things I NEVER thought I would. I’ve met some great people that I hope to remain friends with for years to come. I’ve also developed an even better appreciation for home and my family & friends! 



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