OOoh the horror of it all…

It is much easier to come up with 8 fears no matter how ridiculous they are then it was to come up with 7 wants. How does that even make sense??

Fear #1: Dying by Shark attack.
         I know this seems completely ridiculous but I am really convinced that at some point in my life I will be involved in a shark attack and die. It has not completely paralyzed me enough to not get into the ocean but I won’t get in past my waist.

Fear #2: Centipedes.
    I can handle just about any kind of bug but centipedes make me scream like a girl and run. I don’t really know why but I can’t come across one without freaking out and literally feeling sick to my stomach. Just looking at the picture makes me gag a little.

Fear #3: Failure
  Terrified I will not do anything with my life and end up a depressed old cat lady. I still can’t figure out what I want to do with my life so that leads into thinking I will fail at life.

Fear #4: Not getting married
   This seems like a stupid fear but really I wonder all the time if I am ever going to get married. The idea of a wedding is exciting and I would love to have one but the idea of spending the rest of my life with someone and no one else terrifies me. I am really hoping one day that changes otherwise as I said in the 3rd fear I could end up a depressed old cat lady.

Fear #5: The nasty feeling in the pit of your stomach when your on a roller coaster.
   This is feeling scares me out of riding roller coasters or doing anything that involves a big drop because I am terrified that I will puke on myself or someone else.

Fear #6: Doing something embarrassing in front of my family or friends
   This is not your average I am a drunk fool embarrassing stuff. I am talking shitting, pissing myself, waking up naked in a puddle of vomit on a street corner type stuff.

Fear #7: Disposal of my perversion after I die
   This is another one of those irrational fears but sometimes I think to myself “What if I die today, who is going get rid of all my perverted shit so my parents don’t see it?” I don’t want to be thinking about this kind of thing but it is serious. I told G as my best friend its his duty to go in and get rid of it but what if we die in the same crazy accident or something?

Fear #8: Kids.
   I’ve said previously how I do not have any interest in having children. So naturally I am terrified that a few things related to kids will happen to me. 1. I will fall in love with a man that wants kids(The boy recently scared me a bit with this)  2. I will get pregnant and have an attack of conscience and have a kid I didn’t really want 3. I will get struck by baby fever when my friends start having kids and decide to have one and regret all that nonsense too.

Seven wants: It will probably take me all day to write this post. There are a million things I want, material and otherwise.

Want #1: To be living in a place other than Chicago. Right now this is not possible because of some circumstances out of my control but as soon as it is I am leaving. I have several fears about this that I guess I will cover tomorrow but I definitely can not wait for it to happen.

Want #2: Money to travel. I don’t want money for material things I want money to travel. Lots of it and lots of traveling. I seriously consider getting a 2nd job at least once a week just to have money to travel but then I would never have the time to do that.

Want #3: To know the future…
I guess this seems like a stupid desire since it is not really possible but I would just like to know what is in store for me.

Want #4: Super powers…I don’t know which one in particular I would want the most but it would be pretty awesome to have some kind of super power

Want #5: Super model body…no actually I don’t think I need  super model body but I would love to be more fit and maybe not have such a bubble butt. I know most women would kill for it but I would kill to fit into regular jeans without a Beyonce booty thing going on.

Want #6: Harem of men all to myself. This is kind of a joke and kind of not. The Boy would not appreciate this but lets be real here, if I could have a group of men on call and not have to deal with any of their nonsense I would have it set up right away.

Want #7: Happiness. Whatever way it comes. I don’t care if it means I am broke living in a cardboard box as long as I am happy.

Day 6: Six Places…
  I don’t know if this should be 6 places I have been or places I want to go? I think I will do a little of both. I haven’t traveled nearly enough so there are plenty of places I want to see so hard to narrow it down.

Place #1: Jamaica
   I  know K did this one too but really once you go…you know. My heart is in this place and my body is stuck in Chicago.

Place #2: Spain
   I have always wanted to go to Spain. I have had so many friends go and I have never heard anyone say they didn’t enjoy themselves. Hopefully one day soon I will get to teach there. One day.

Place #5: Eygpt
   I am a history buff so any trip where I can see something historic will make my life that much better.

Place #6: This one was hard because I wasn’t sure if I should another place I want to go or a place I have been…I went with a place I want…Australia. I have no real explanation for why I would like to go there.