Some things I have realized:

I place too much faith in people.

Online dating is scary and exciting at the same time.

It is going to be hard to find someone that will be as good to me as my ex.  

Even though I am feeling very needy and emotional I don’t need to find a guy to fix that

My best friend is a guy. I can’t tell you guys how many times he has told me all the ridiculous things he does to girls and all the games that he has played. If there is anyone I know that I should listen to when it comes to dating it is him. Do I? No! If he says don’t call, I call. If he says you have to give them a bit of a chase, I give too much. If he says your being too nice…I argue that I am not. The truth is, I am way too nice.

Case and point…after a month of talking to Cboy and thinking he was the next best thing to be introduced into my life I realized that I had placed too much faith in him. I can’t even really call it dating, I have no clue what he and I were really doing. It was friendly and very flirty and there was some cute teenage groping/makeout sessions involved but it didn’t get very far. I was convinced the universe was playing games with us(I’ll explain more on that later) and so it was mostly a lot of talking and getting to know each other. He comes with baggage…red flag #1, he has been screwed over by women and a very very recent ex…red flag #2 and he did this thing where he just disappeared….red flag #3. When you talk to someone all day and then they just disappear you start to worry. Or maybe I just start to worry. Anyway, he popped back up a couple days later and I told him how I was upset. It was discussed and understood. Guess what happened? He did it again…. G’s advice? Give it up, he is up to something and you don’t want any part of that. If only it was that easy right?

This all led me to realize that even though I was the one who broke up with The Boy I am still emotionally not prepared for the crap that happens when you are out in the dating world. I have to toughen up and get some wisdom. There is clearly something about me that attracts the kind of guys that have baggage(ie…kids, girlfriends, crazy ex’s) and I need to nip that junk in the butt from the beginning. I also need to remember that just because he seems nice doesn’t mean that he is and I don’t have to put up with any games.

I also realized that even though I would like to find the future Mr.____ I don’t really need to be on the quest for that right now. How would it make any sense to meet the man of my dreams a few months before I move  across the country?! So that is my man realization 101 for today.

                                                                          

Well it is Monday again….I don’t know about you all but I am rarely if ever happy on this day of the week. I am also here at work while much of the city is off today. Damn this not working for school business. 

Anyway it was a pretty good weekend, nothing too exciting but still overall a good one. 

1. I got my very first Birchbox! Yay me! I have read lots of posts about them so, of course, I got a subscription. For those of you who don’t know me I am a pretty simple girl. I rarely get my nails done, or my hair done. Not to say that I don’t take good care of it all but I just don’t really get into it much. I also wear minimal amounts of makeup, I’m talking blush and eyeliner/eyeshadow max. So that being said I am excited to see what new things I can try! I did a little dance on Friday when it came… I will have to let you all know in another post once I get to try everything! 

2. Saturday I had a lunch date with a guy from the online dating world. I think we will call him Mr.Hops. I am only giving him a name because I know 100% there will be another date! I knew once he and I exchanged numbers and text that he was going to be very fun to talk to and eventually hang out with. He let me pick the day for the date, asked if I was more comfortable with lunch or dinner drinks, picked me up(nearby-still careful not to let strangers know where I live) opened doors, dropped me off by the door so he could find parking and I wouldn’t have to walk in the snow. Scored a 10 for looking exactly like his photo which happens to be a very adorable blonde hair, blue eyed guy. Conversation flowed well, he made me laugh, complimented me at the appropriate times. I would say he was a winner! He made a very cute joke as I was getting ready to get out of the car that I was smiling about for the rest of the day. The only iffy hiccupy type thing is that he is 39. He doesn’t look his age which is great and he doesn’t act too young or too old so for now I am not going to let that bother me. He already text me asking if I would like to meet up this week. Yay!!

3. Thanks to #2 I was better able to deal with the constant arguments I was having with The Boy all last week. He is still not on the same level of over it acceptance that I am so we tend to have some nasty arguments that result in me being completely flustered. That is definitely something I do not miss and will never do with the next guy whenever that may come along.

4. A and I went to a co-workers party this weekend and had a great time. I wish I had a picture but I completely forgot to take one and that sucks since I know I looked pretty good! I do want to share this picture she just posted on FB from November I think….

look at those cheesy smiles

5. Sunday I went to visit the family. I couldn’t believe how much I missed them. I usually make it a point to visit every sunday and sometimes if the timing is good I also visit during the week. I hadn’t seen them since the Monday after Xmas. I was having family time withdrawls. I don’t know what I will do when I move away from Chicago. I think it will be a lot harder than I think. Luck would have it that my cousin’s were over with their adorable little girl. She is too cute and so active! We can’t forget my gorgeous nephew who talks so much more everytime I see him greeting me by calling my name and giving me hugs!

excuse my messy hangover hair

he loves those jammies

6.  Ummm I actually don’t have a number six….So that’s all for now folks!