Some thoughts…

I have some things on my mind and stuff I just want to share…

-Sometimes keeping up with blogging can be hard. I’ve had this blog for a little over a year now and a few months ago I decided I wanted to really put more time and effort into it. Sometimes I feel like its a popularity contest and that I might have lost sight of the reason I started blogging to begin with. I do love having new followers, knowing that people are reading what I am sharing.Somewhere along the line I started stressing about posting things that might offend people, changing my writing style to be a little less snarky so that I don’t offend anyone. I don’t love fashion, I hate combing my hair, I would much rather spend $100 on a night out with the girls then buy clothes or get my hair/nails done. I honestly will never be a fitness blogger, I hate working out and only do just enough to keep me from ending up ginormous. I feel like I need to start writing for me and stop stressing so much about making my blog fit into a mold that gets a ton of visitors.

-Dating sucks. I don’t have a clue what I thought it was supposed to be like when I had a boyfriend and wished to be single. NO CLUE. I may single for a very long time simply because most of the men I meet annoy me. I don’t have tons of extra time on my hands and no its not ok to get pissy if I have to cancel a date because I am being rushed to the hospital. I mean really, that is ridiculous. I like my time, I hate having to feel rushed or like I didn’t leave enough time to get my homework done or enough “me” time in the week. So its not being an ass if I decide that I can not meet you for a drink tomorrow just because you asked me at 9pm tonight. With that being said….

-I hung out with The Boy over the weekend. We went to the movies and to dinner. I had the same medical issues while we were dating so he is pretty aware of how it works and how I am feeling. He has been so sweet and offered to help me out. I don’t know how it came to be that almost six months later we are able to hang out but it was great. I wish he was the person he is now when we were dating. Does that make sense? I guess everyone evolves but really I wonder where that person was when I was his girlfriend.

-This move business has me stressed. I am starting to freak out. It’s coming up fast and I am starting to be terrified. What if I move and hate it? What if I end up signing up for more than I can handle? Who the hell am I going to hang out with?! I know its supposed to be exciting but now that it is getting closer I am starting to wonder how different this life will be from Chicago besides the weather and the fact that my friends and family will be 1,200 miles away. I’m going to be doing the same kind of work I don’t really like, I will now have more bills as I need to get a car and will probably live alone. I don’t know…I guess it just makes me wonder if I should have held out for the things to work out so I could go to China and teach instead.

how I have been feeling lately….

So that is what is on my mind today….what is going on with you?!